Speechless

There were too many things that happened to us, between us and around us that I don't have the strength to write everything down anymore. 

Zodiac

Yesterday I talked to someone who happened to have the exact same situation like what I'm going through right now. One thing that caught my attention was how good he understands people's characteristics through his observation with guidelines from what we called, zodiac. Obviously we can't put our faith in this thing, I know. What I'm trying to tell is, even if there was no such thing as zodiac exists, I do still think that our birth to this world, like for example the time of birth, hold the mysteries in telling how our characteristics will be. And again, I'm not saying that what I said just now is true. It is just my humanly-prone-to-making-mistakes personal opinion. 

Just now I googled something about 'jodoh'. Yes, I'm still in mourn for what have happened. I was trying to find some religious articles about jodoh, something that I think maybe could coax my heart a bit. And one of the results that came out was "Pilihan Jodoh Sesuai Zodiak". Lain yang dicari lain yang diklik kan. Sigh. This is what actually made me remember yesterday's conversation, and what makes me want to write this piece right now. What I found was pretty much 'kena' with our characteristics. 

VIRGO (23 Agustus – 22 September)

Cewek virgo memiliki standard tinggi dalam menentukan pasangan. Cenderung menikah di usia cukup dewasa dan hanya jika telah mendapatkan pasangan yang mampu memenuhi standard. Seorang ibu rumah tangga yang sempurna, orangtua yang tegas, dan pasangan yang baik. Sering kali menarik perhatian banyak pria di usia pertengahan.

SAGITARIUS (22 November – 21 Desember)

Cowok sagitarius sulit bahagia dengan hanya satu wanita. Sulit berkomitmen dan tidak suka berhubungan terlalu dekat dengan seseorang. Memerlukan kebebasan dan menyingkirkan cemburu pada pasangan. Memilih wanita berpengalaman, yang mampu membuat cinta menjadi lebih ringan. Menyukai pasangan dengan selera humor tinggi. Memiliki rasa ingin tahu yang besar terhadap segala hal.

As for mine, "cenderung menikah di usia cukup dewasa" tu memang sah-sah tak betul. Hehe. I want to be a 'legal' partner to my man, and I want us to improve our amal to Him, together. Be his wife during this life and be his wife in Jannah too. It's really nice just to think about it right? When we have the one person we love the most by our side, striving for the afterlife eternal happiness, what else would I want in this world other than this? Tears, please hold yourself from falling. 

As for his, what can I say? They do sound like the truth. The commitment part was exactly like what he told me himself. He told me that he's uncomfortable with us being too close now. But we were even closer before and we've never been any happier. Strange. It stuns me sometimes to see how people can change that much. But yes, people do change. I changed too. I guess it's my fault for being too happy and to have thought that this will never happen to us. But what can I do, my feet were swept off the ground and he took me flying really high. Just when everything seems so beautiful when we were further from the ground, I never thought that he would let me go and I couldn't even get up again after I fell.

But still, I don't even know why I'm still loving him. Maybe that's what happens when we truly love someone not just for his good side, but for the other side as well. I think. Or maybe it's just plain stupidity. I don't know. I wish I could fall asleep for years and wake up to see what's waiting for me there. It's just too painful to stay awake now. Dear Allah, please help me out of this grief. Please. 

I'm All Broken

Sapphires Really Do You Good

Well since I really really heart blue sapphires, I can't help but googling everything about it. From images to the detailed facts about sapphires. And what I found did amaze me. Do you know that sapphire can actually gives impact to our mind by just looking at it? Actually I wanted to write all about what good this beautiful precious stone can bring us in my previous entry, but I guess I'll just be cramping everything there.

Okay then, a bit of intro. The name Sapphire originates from two sources - Greek "Sappheiros" and the Latin "Sapphirus" which both mean "blue". Sapphire is a gemstone that belongs to the corundum (Al₂O₃₎ family which is the same mineral group as ruby's. A 9.0 on the Mohs scale of hardness, sapphire is the second hardest natural mineral, only next to diamond. Sapphires possess higher clarity values than emeralds and rubies and come in many colours but the most popular are the blue ones. _{Well even} the the blue has many shades. I think this chart might help. My favourite would be the rich intense royal blue.

According to Ancient Persians the Earth rested on a giant sapphire and it was the stone's reflection that colored the sky. Sapphires are a favorite gemstone for royalty and often associated with loyalty and dignity. It has long symbolized truth, sincerity, and faithfulness. This makes it perfect for engagement, wedding and anniversary rings. (Yay!) It is also believed that if the wearer is unfaithful or has done something wicked or impure, the sapphire will lose its shine and refuse to glow. Sangat menarik!

It can change colour! Cool.

Perhaps the most important attribute of sapphire was said to be that of protection against sorcery. It is said to lessen the powers of the cast spells of evil ones or evil spirits and reflects the harmful spells back to the sender. Royalty has been long wearing sapphires to cast away envy, to ward all evil and gain divine favors. No wonder the British royalty are so obsessed with sapphires! Have you noticed Pricess Diana's and Kate Middleton's engagement ring?

They share the same engagement ring.

Sapphire was also thought to have strong medical powers. Its powers include spiritual enlightenment and inner peace. Blue sapphire was thought to increase the life span and to end headaches, nightmares, and nosebleeds when placed on the forehead. In ancient Persia, ground sapphires were used as an all purpose medicine. People also took sapphire as an antidote for poison and poisonous bites. At one time it was credited to remove all impurities and foreign matter from the eye. The method is to dip it in a bowl of water and the water is then used for rinsing the eyes.

Boleh rendam dalam air buat bilas mata lagi. Extra cool!

Sapphire is the September birthstone as well as the accepted anniversary gem for the 5th and 45th years of marriage. A ring with a sapphire stone was alleged to bring wisdom and compassion to its owner. When disaster is near, the stone takes on a chalky appearance, which lasts until the danger passes. Naturally, the wearer will experience inner peace. It is also said to aid the wearer in memory and in mental recall, focus and concentration.

Very interesting right? Without doubt, I am sooo getting sapphire wedding rings for us. Wish us luck for our ring hunting soon!

I Dream Of A Blue Sapphire Wedding Ring!

There. I've said it, out loud. But why sapphire? Why not the all-time-favorite-for-weddings diamond? I still remember when I was a little girl, I'd always had this thought that we should never use other colourful gems except for colourless diamonds for weddings, because I haven't seen anyone with coloured gemstone wedding ring, YET. Sigh.

Well, I would just say that among of all the precious stones that exist in this world, I like blue sapphire the most. No, I LOVE blue sapphires the most. And for this reason alone, I think it already explains why I would want a 1.0 carat solitaire royal blue sapphire ring with platinum setting as my wedding ring. Berangan lagi...Yeah, I know. -_- 

I purposely choose solitaire ring for my wedding to match with my groom's ring which will only be having one single sapphire stone. Macam pelik je lelaki pakai cincin ada banyak-banyak batu. Yes or no? Lagi pun, sweet jugak kan kalau mula-mula kahwin start dengan cincin satu batu, lepas tu dapat lagi cincin on anniversaries yang berbatu-batu dan bercarat-carat pulak kan? Haha. I personally like this seacrest ring design so much. Simple look yet elegant and interesting.

Totally heart this design. But how will it looks like with no little diamonds embellishment? Lets see...

Like this perhaps?

Tapi design tak seacrest macam ni pun cantik jugak. Ah sudah. Having second thoughts here.

Oh and btw, I came across a nice ring design for men. Speaking of his ring, we went surveying for wedding rings in Diamond & Platinum One Utama few weeks ago where Adib tried on a really nice full-polished platinum ring with a small diamond embellishment. I told him I like that design a lot because it looks so perfect on his finger. He said that the ring was nice but he prefers a combination of matte and polished finish for his ring. Tak macho kalau lelaki pakai yang berkilat sangat. Hum, make sense.
 

I'm trying to imagine this ring with a royal blue sapphire instead of diamond.

Berangan berangan jugak, ada ke kedai yang nak melayan custom design dengan bajet tak seberapa ni. Haih, wake up please. 

For centuries, sapphires have been associated with wisdom, fidelity and purity, making them popular in engagement, anniversary, and spiritual jewelry. According to "Valuable Stones," sapphires have historically been worn by royalty and priests because they were believed to protect the wearer from physical harm and envy.

Read more: Interesting Facts About Sapphires | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/facts_7517836_interesting-sapphires.html#ixzz2CVIEcbmr

For centuries, sapphires have been associated with wisdom, fidelity and purity, making them popular in engagement, anniversary, and spiritual jewelry. According to "Valuable Stones," sapphires have historically been worn by royalty and priests because they were believed to protect the wearer from physical harm and envy.

Read more: Interesting Facts About Sapphires | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/facts_7517836_interesting-sapphires.html#ixzz2CVIEcbmr

For centuries, sapphires have been associated with wisdom, fidelity and purity, making them popular in engagement, anniversary, and spiritual jewelry. According to "Valuable Stones," sapphires have historically been worn by royalty and priests because they were believed to protect the wearer from physical harm and envy.

Read more: Interesting Facts About Sapphires | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/facts_7517836_interesting-sapphires.html#ixzz2CVIEcbmr

We Were Fourteen When We First Met

Three years back exactly on this date, there was a guy and a girl who went out for a movie together. It was their first time, a movie for just the two of them. They were long lost classmates, years back when they were both fourteen. 

Secretly, they were both each other’s huge crush back in school but they’ve never told anyone. Through the whole year as classmates, they had barely talked to each other. The girl felt that maybe the guy hated her for some reasons. While the guy felt that the girl wasn’t really interested in him. A year passed and the guy left town and went to a new school. They’ve never seen each other again since then but the feeling they had was neatly kept in their hearts.

Images from Google

Until one day, September 22nd 2009, the guy appeared in front of the girl’s house. It was the fourth day of Raya and the guy was back in town catching up with some old friends. But there he was, just him standing handsomely in front of the door. There was something about that look that made the girl’s heartbeat gone crazy. She was nervous but didn’t know why. That was the first time they’ve seen each other again after six years.

Images from Google

So they got each other’s numbers and texted almost every day. Until one fine day, the guy asked the girl out for a movie. It wasn’t intended to be a date, just two old friends going for a movie. At least that was what they both had in mind. Duhh. It was the movie that people talked about all year--2012.

Image from Google

The day was set and they agreed to meet each other on Saturday, November 14th. The first time their eyes met again, it was really awkward. But in some way, it was pleasantly awkward. When they arrived in Pavilion, the tickets available were only the midnight tickets. Thinking that they might not have any other chances to watch the movie next time, they agreed to hang out and chat until morning after the movie.

It was the spot in front of the Pavilion fountain, they sat and chat for hours and hours. They had so much to talk about that it almost felt that they will never run out of things to chat with each other. Later that they knew, that night of long hours of talking, was the moment that they actually grew feelings for each other.

The fountain

Picture from Google

But again, they didn’t tell anyone, not even to each other. They just kept texting and calling and went out together again and again till there’s no point of denying that they’re in love. They’re madly in love and what actually makes thing sweeter is that they actually held that feelings since they were fourteen and it never changed.

The spot where the guy and the girl sat all night.

Picture from Google

That’s the story of how I met my soul mate and here I am now, writing everything here about our preparation for the big day. To Adib my dearest, this entry is specially for you. I’ve never loved anyone like I love you and always will no matter what. And the love you’ve showered me with will forever be my greatest treasure. May our plans be in ease the life we choose together be blessed with happiness and triumph.

I love you.

Your first candid. I miss this moment!

Signature Colour Of Mine

I love red! I love every shades of red. But to be precise, the shade of red that has been my favourite of all time is "merah darah" or cranberry-like scarlet red. Sounds very vampish right? Yeah, I guess so. I've been known by almost all of my friends for liking red so much. So for that, I'm thinking of putting on a mermaid cut dress of this colour. As for my handsome groom, he can match his black suit with a tie or a shirt from the same shade with my dress. 

Everything else, the background, the theme, the dais, I want them to be WHITE. Oh I love white as well. Especially in weddings. And put in mind people, this cranberry-like scarlet red can only be worn by US on that day. Yes, exclusively for the bride and the groom ONLY. Have you ever saw a picture of both of the pengantin on the dais together with their friends and families, and you were like staring at that picture for quite a while and finally said to yourself, "Mana satu pengantin ni, nampak macam sama je pengantin dengan dayang-dayang." Even worse, warna pelamin pun sama. That's just sad okay. 

I mean, come on. It is your wedding and you have all the right in the world to be EXCLUSIVE. And this includes the colour of your dresses too, ladies. You don't wanna be 'invisible' or mistaken for a bridesmaid or worst, overshadowed by your own pengapit. Lagi-lagi kalau pengapit tu lagi hot dari pengantin. It's the end of the world for you, bride. Okay, enough of that. I've found some fabulous palettes of reds from theperfectpalette.com and I was melted by the minute I saw them.

Cranberry, Slate Gray, Gray & White



The tie, the blouse and the heels. Aren't they just awesome? They are so my colour!

Cranberry, Red & White

 

Gosh I'm so in love with the stunning red lips and the vintage car! I want! I want! I want!



Since our wedding will be exactly on Valentine's day, I think red sure screams LOVE. Sukanya berangan!!! Haha. Haih, rindu pulak kat Adib. *tiba-tiba*

It's November Again

It was a few Novembers back, where the sweetest thing that could ever happen in my life started -- YOU and I. And today, it's November again. How time flies, but it still feels like it was just yesterday you and I had our first everything together.

No measure of time with you will be long enough. But let's start with forever.

I love you.